I found myself facedown on my yoga mat this morning, tears streaming down my face.

If I’m honest, that is not how I expected my morning to go. But it was absolutely beautiful, and I hope I find myself in that place again.

Let me explain.

Every morning, I carve out time to spend with God. It looks a little different from day to day, but it usually includes journaling, reading my Bible, and, more recently, sitting in silence or using a meditation app to help me focus and draw near to Him. I’ve been using Lectio 365 for many months now, and this week I tried a new one called The Pause App.

This matters to me because I’ve sensed God inviting me to slow down—to reflect, meditate, and simply be with Him more. These apps help bridge the gap between my wandering mind and my desire to meet with God. Otherwise, I can go outside to sit with Him and end up thinking about what I’m going to cook for dinner or whether I should buy a pair of overalls.

The distraction is real.

So this morning, I was going through all my usual rhythms, and if I’m honest, I just felt distance. I couldn’t seem to find where God was or hear His voice. I was catching glimpses, maybe, but I didn’t want another glimpse. I wanted, as Paul writes in Ephesians 3:19, to “be filled to the measure of all the fullness of God.”

But, as we tell our kids often, you can’t always get what you want. So I finished—or thought I finished—my quiet time and got up to cook breakfast.

Once breakfast was ready and I was about to sit down and eat, I decided at the last minute to turn on the Sing app, a daily devotional and song from The Worship Initiative. I’ve been listening to it on and off for a few months. Again, it’s one of those small ways I try to turn my attention back to Jesus throughout the day.

The song for today’s devotional was “Holy Forever,” and the leader sharing the devo was David Nassar. He told his story of being from Iran and coming to America as a boy when his family fled for refuge. He also shared his heart for his war-torn country.

He described a moment when he was preparing to speak and looked out at a crowd of young people singing “Holy Forever.” As he watched them worship, he had a vision of a soccer stadium filled with Iranian teenagers singing the same song to God. The heart of it was this: Jesus’ name is above every other name. He is Lord over all the earth and every nation. David spoke about the underground church growing rapidly in Iran and how, even in persecution, people are turning to the Lord.

The Scripture behind the song is Philippians 2:9–10, which says of Jesus: “Therefore God exalted him to the highest place and gave him the name that is above every name, that at the name of Jesus every knee should bow, in heaven and on earth and under the earth.”

And as we began to sing the opening words—“A thousand generations falling down in worship to sing the song of ages to the Lamb”—I was suddenly overcome by the nearness and goodness of God. Moments earlier, He had seemed distant, almost elusive. And now, standing in my kitchen, I felt as though I had stepped into the throne room of God.

And what does one do when they become aware of the presence of God?

Bow down.
Worship.

Because His name is the highest.
His name is the greatest.
His name stands above them all.

This is what I love about God, and what I think He was teaching me in that moment:

When God feels distant, keep seeking. Keep searching. Keep going. Breakthrough may be just around the corner—just on the other side of the next song.

Jeremiah 29:13 says, “You will seek me and find me when you seek me with all your heart.”

And when you find Him, oh, it is soul-satisfying good.